I can't see and yet I can

So I keep thinking about Cajun Girardi. I feel like I am a giddy girl in high school. Of course, since I can never keep my mouth shut, I told one of my coworkers about the phone call on Friday. She laughed at me, just like I expected. Not too mention that while at work I kept looking for him (covertly of course.) I didn't see him in any of his usual spots for most of the day. So I planned to go to the coworker I told the story to, so that I could jokingly tell her that I think he was avoiding me. As soon as I rounded the corner towards her desk, I looked up and saw him. Talking to her. I kind of hesitated for a half second. Once again awkwardness ensued, we both kind of looked at each other, said "Hi, how are you, good, great" at the same time. It's like I don't even know what to say. I know what I want to say, but I don't know how he will respond, and that scares me. I feel like I am socially retarded in situations like this. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I am always rejected.

On another subject, I finally went to have my eyes checked today. Let me explain my ocular history briefly. I am the only member of my family who does not wear glasses or contacts full time. I had my eyes checked when I was younger (around high school or college), at which point I was given glasses for distance (meaning I was farsighted - right?). So I wore these on and off for a while. I never could get used to wearing them. Then, when I moved out to Vegas 5 years ago I had my eyes checked again. This time I was told that I was nearsighted and I was given glasses for reading. Again, I started off pretty good, but I never could get used to the glasses so they ended up gathering dust.

Well late last week my friend yelled at me since I had my head resting on my desk while I was writing, so I made an appointment to have my eyes checked. Well, guess what the deal is now. You got it - I am far sighted in my left eye and near sighted in my right eye. So what does this mean? Basically that in most normal functions I have no real need for glasses, however, I have NO DEPTH PERCEPTION. This explains why my batting average has been slumping lately, why I can't catch a fly ball, and most of all why I have issues driving at night (i.e. if I am making a left turn I have a hard time seeing the center median). So my doctor said I have two choices - I can wear one single contact when playing sports (no choice there I am NOT putting anything in my eye) or I can get a pair of glasses to wear when driving at night and when I play softball.

The only downside - since my company provides vision insurance I have to go to a VSP provider. Lenscrafters is not a provider, and they are the only place I know where I can get glasses right away. So I have to wait 7 to 10 days before my glasses are ready. The good thing - I am not necessarily a bad soft ball player - my eyes are just fucked up.