The letter I will not send
Greg,
I have always wondered what happened to you, what happened to us. Although the end of our relationship was abrupt and painful, I can honestly say that I have always kept a place for you in my heart.
The way it all began was humorous. It was all a whim. There I was a high school senior, dealing with so many issues, the trials and tribulations of growing up and figuring out where I belonged in the world. And on pure impulse, I reached out to you. Hell, you even thought it was a joke. In the very beginning it may have been.
We clicked instantly. We would talk on the phone for hours, even though I hated talking on the phone, but it never seemed that long. I didn't want to stop talking with you. Everything else in the world disappeared when we talked.
I never thought our first date would happen. Why did there have to be a blizzard on that Saturday of all days? You were even sweet enough to pick me up from work just so that I wouldn't have to walk home in the snow. And that night we went on our first date. And I don't think I talked to you the entire night. I was so nervous. And then you drove me home. We talked a little bit. When I went to get out of the car, you stopped me and asked me a question. "Don't I get a kiss good night?" I think that is when our relationship really began. It wasn't the next weekend when you asked me to be your girlfriend. It was that moment in the car.
We had a lot good times. Hanging out at your parents house, laughing, watching TV, pretending to watch TV. It was nice. But, all good things must come to an end. I was worried that you would leave me like so many had before and I got nervous that you would cheat on me. I so desperately wanted you to reassure me that everything was okay, but I didn't know how to tell you what I needed. All I knew how to do was become needy and clingy. It was over.
I still can't get over the way you ended it. When I confronted you to see if anything was wrong you said no. And then two weeks later, you called me up, and ended it. You couldn't even do it in person. I was crushed.
In all the years since then I have vascillated between being sad to mad and every emotion in between. But it is what it is and it has influenced the person I am today. Although I am sad that it ended, I am glad that we had the time we had. I don't know that I would change any of it.
I hope your life is everything that you wanted it to be. I hope that you are content as I am. I hope you enjoy life.
Good bye.
I have always wondered what happened to you, what happened to us. Although the end of our relationship was abrupt and painful, I can honestly say that I have always kept a place for you in my heart.
The way it all began was humorous. It was all a whim. There I was a high school senior, dealing with so many issues, the trials and tribulations of growing up and figuring out where I belonged in the world. And on pure impulse, I reached out to you. Hell, you even thought it was a joke. In the very beginning it may have been.
We clicked instantly. We would talk on the phone for hours, even though I hated talking on the phone, but it never seemed that long. I didn't want to stop talking with you. Everything else in the world disappeared when we talked.
I never thought our first date would happen. Why did there have to be a blizzard on that Saturday of all days? You were even sweet enough to pick me up from work just so that I wouldn't have to walk home in the snow. And that night we went on our first date. And I don't think I talked to you the entire night. I was so nervous. And then you drove me home. We talked a little bit. When I went to get out of the car, you stopped me and asked me a question. "Don't I get a kiss good night?" I think that is when our relationship really began. It wasn't the next weekend when you asked me to be your girlfriend. It was that moment in the car.
We had a lot good times. Hanging out at your parents house, laughing, watching TV, pretending to watch TV. It was nice. But, all good things must come to an end. I was worried that you would leave me like so many had before and I got nervous that you would cheat on me. I so desperately wanted you to reassure me that everything was okay, but I didn't know how to tell you what I needed. All I knew how to do was become needy and clingy. It was over.
I still can't get over the way you ended it. When I confronted you to see if anything was wrong you said no. And then two weeks later, you called me up, and ended it. You couldn't even do it in person. I was crushed.
In all the years since then I have vascillated between being sad to mad and every emotion in between. But it is what it is and it has influenced the person I am today. Although I am sad that it ended, I am glad that we had the time we had. I don't know that I would change any of it.
I hope your life is everything that you wanted it to be. I hope that you are content as I am. I hope you enjoy life.
Good bye.
posted by Shannon @ 9:52 PM
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