I'm a girl, I'm allowed to change my mind...

I know I said that it would never happen, but that doesn't mean that I don't want it to. I really, really want it to. The idea of it becoming reality makes me very happy, but at the same time, it makes me sad because logically and realistically I just can't see how. But I'm going to keep looking for a way. I haven't had these particular feelings in quite some time and they are more than welcome.